House Blues

Lucy-Bday (29), originally uploaded by Joyspeak.

Thanks so much for your comments. it's nice to know i have friends that still want to read my stories after so long. Don't think you won't hear them again. Just cause i'm posting them doesn't mean i wont give you the same story with hand motions and voice inflections. You're gonna get them one way or another if you see me around. Thanks for caring. love you guys!

I don't know if i can go thru with 40 days of not searching for a house. There are so many houses for sale in the area where we want to live. Couldn't we just have one? We have been so picky for just the right house no wonder it has taken us over a year to find the right one. We had set up an appointment with our realtor to take a look at a handful of houses tomorrow. We decided we'd go ahead and go and then just wait and see how we felt. We told him Monday we wanted to see them. Altho we are giving up an intense search for a house on MLS we are open to suggestions and if you know of any that you think we might like. Let me know. I want a few things specifically: Main level laundry (i know Jen you are tired of hearing this) i hate doing laundry in the basement! 3 bed with room for my craft space, 1 1/2 to 2 bathrooms. Fort Hill area. Level lot no stairs to the front door! This is so huge since i have been living on the 2nd floor for so long. I am tired of carrying up the groceries and Lucy. I really want a nice kitchen too (who doesn't) i've been so spoiled by the cabinets and appliances here at the apt, I'd love to have the same. so let me know if you hear of something along those lines. Max we'd like to pay is $120.

Yesterday i just broke down crying on the phone with Brian. I just want so badly to be settled. Every time i walk up those stairs i pray," Jesus, i trust in you" on every step. I want so badly to trust Him. I can't remember the last time i wanted something so bad. It is like wanting to be pregnant and i wanted that reeeally bad for about 8 mos but i don't know if i wanted it quite this bad. I REALLY WANT A HOUSE. Ok, i am done wining. I know He loves us and knows right where we should live and i don't have any angry feelings toward Him or anyone. But i'm just mainly sad. that's just it. sad that we are still living in this great apartment. i mean i do love this place, i just didn't think we'd be here so long.

Here's one of my favs of Lucy to Cheer me up and make your day. Ryan did a great job taking pictures for Lucy's Birthday party. They turned out amazing!
if i am ever tempted to get bitter about what i don't have oh my gosh i am so thankful for this child! She is amazing. Just look at that face!!! Holli, check out my Flickr for more Lucy love..

Have a great weekend!