Surgery

Just 4 more hours till i drift off to sleep and wake up knowing what is gonig on inside me. Last night was rough.I had to engage in some colon cleansing activities... getting ready for this and my nerves taking over my body at times. I did get some sleep but i woke up every hour. I'm kind of looking forward to this. I like being spoiled :) It's kind of like a party. Mom, Brian, Deaven, Dea, Joyce, Chris, Kim and maybe more :) I love having my friends with me at all times. I just told them not to have to much fun with out me.

I don't know what is inside me exactly but they will find out then. It may be endometriosis. I pray all my parts will be preserved. I do want children one day. If you are reading this. Please pray it won't be cancer.
I know He is having me go thru this for a reason. He wants to teach me to trust in Him. I hope i learn fast, so this crucible will be over soon. I'm scared. But i trust in Him who created the universe, He created my parts. He has his eye on me and His hand around my heart.
Psa 145:18-19
18The LORD is near to all who call upon Him, To all who call upon Him in truth.
19He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Him;He will also hear their cry and will save them.

more to come...