House Blues

Lucy-Bday (29), originally uploaded by Joyspeak.

Thanks so much for your comments. it's nice to know i have friends that still want to read my stories after so long. Don't think you won't hear them again. Just cause i'm posting them doesn't mean i wont give you the same story with hand motions and voice inflections. You're gonna get them one way or another if you see me around. Thanks for caring. love you guys!

I don't know if i can go thru with 40 days of not searching for a house. There are so many houses for sale in the area where we want to live. Couldn't we just have one? We have been so picky for just the right house no wonder it has taken us over a year to find the right one. We had set up an appointment with our realtor to take a look at a handful of houses tomorrow. We decided we'd go ahead and go and then just wait and see how we felt. We told him Monday we wanted to see them. Altho we are giving up an intense search for a house on MLS we are open to suggestions and if you know of any that you think we might like. Let me know. I want a few things specifically: Main level laundry (i know Jen you are tired of hearing this) i hate doing laundry in the basement! 3 bed with room for my craft space, 1 1/2 to 2 bathrooms. Fort Hill area. Level lot no stairs to the front door! This is so huge since i have been living on the 2nd floor for so long. I am tired of carrying up the groceries and Lucy. I really want a nice kitchen too (who doesn't) i've been so spoiled by the cabinets and appliances here at the apt, I'd love to have the same. so let me know if you hear of something along those lines. Max we'd like to pay is $120.

Yesterday i just broke down crying on the phone with Brian. I just want so badly to be settled. Every time i walk up those stairs i pray," Jesus, i trust in you" on every step. I want so badly to trust Him. I can't remember the last time i wanted something so bad. It is like wanting to be pregnant and i wanted that reeeally bad for about 8 mos but i don't know if i wanted it quite this bad. I REALLY WANT A HOUSE. Ok, i am done wining. I know He loves us and knows right where we should live and i don't have any angry feelings toward Him or anyone. But i'm just mainly sad. that's just it. sad that we are still living in this great apartment. i mean i do love this place, i just didn't think we'd be here so long.

Here's one of my favs of Lucy to Cheer me up and make your day. Ryan did a great job taking pictures for Lucy's Birthday party. They turned out amazing!
if i am ever tempted to get bitter about what i don't have oh my gosh i am so thankful for this child! She is amazing. Just look at that face!!! Holli, check out my Flickr for more Lucy love..

Have a great weekend!

Oh how i've missed you

We've finally got our very own internet, after bumming off our neighbors for the past 4 years. So to make it up to them we didn't password protect ours this time. Soooo I'm back. I have missed blogging so much. Every time i would think of coming back, i just thought no that's not witty enough or that's not important. Well i've decided to blog and i'm going to write what is on my mind. I just want to be faithful. Which is another reason why i haven't posted anything. I thought if i start then i don't keep up then i've let myself down again. But here it is. Me. no caps, no spell check or grammar check and some serious run on sentences. When i go back to my old posts to see what was going on. I'm always glad i wrote it somewhere. Here's to new beginnings. I'm so excited!

The Great news is that we are pregnant with #2! Yippee! i have been praying for a boy for months now. I had such a great pregnancy and delivery with Luce that i was just dying to do it again. Plus my great Dr. Phemister just makes you want to get knocked up so you can go see him again. Dr Bakers girls know what i'm talking about. So yes after a long time of deciding if i was going to leave the practice and go to Forest Women's Center or not i've decided i'm staying with my favorite doctor. I was so worried that i'd get one of the less liked doctors at our practice i was going to leave. But i can't. I was really making that choice out of fear anyway and i don't want to have any fear in this pregnancy either. We are 3 mos pregnant and pretty excited about this new little one. I've had some pretty bad days and weeks sitting around watching Gilmore Girls and sleeping every time Lucy does. Poor tired Brian comes home and takes care of Lucy for me. Good news is i'm over the ginger ale and saltines, i've graduated to orange juice - lots of orange juice and cheetos and pickles. Pretty much eating that all day long. Luce loves the pickles too.

The update on the house is not such a happy story. We saw Yeardley 323 for the first time in September and it took us a long time to decide we wanted to live there and get the kind of loan we needed to redo the kitchen, the floors and add the new bathroom. The house is in really bad shape. It is basically a party house. Take a look. So needless to say if we ever got this house we would have to pressure wash it in Holy Water before we could actually live in it. The closing was a couple of weeks ago but no we don't own the house. The owner who was about to be foreclosed on decided she wasn't making enough or something and ditches her realtor and us and never showed up. He still has no idea where she is. We just talked to him yesterday and basically she still owns the house not the bank, so we can't get it. it's not for sale. i can't believe we have been looking for a house for this long. It's just so crazy. I've always loved this apartment (Except for grocery day, we are on the 2nd floor) but it's just getting to be tight. This baby keeps on growing inside me and Lucy sleeps in her closet bedroom so i can have a craft room and i want a house soo badly. We loved this Yeardley house so much specifically because of the location. it was backed up to Alistair Mcphersons house, across the street from Kelly a block from the Ashcrofts, walking distance from both Torrences. So sad that we didn't get it. But- the good news is that that loan we were getting into was all wrong. I'm so glad God saved us from that. It was way more than we planned on getting it for and the closing costs were astronomical! I am such a mix of thankfulness that he kept us from that loan but so sad that we have to start over. It's kinda like being dumped at the altar.

Brian and i have decided we aren't going to start "dating" right away. It's so easy to get sucked into the search and just go crazy with it all again. it's so addicting, tiring and draining. We have decided we are giving up the search for Lent. If someone mentions a house we should see then maybe we'll see it on a Sunday, but as for us, our Safari will stay away from Lynchburg MLS.

I got an email recently from Soule Mama. I had asked her for some advice on my blog and being myself and being faithful in posting. She was so encouraging. I love her blog. take a look it will make you want to spend more time with your kids, making things, and getting away from your computer. Crazy how she does that WITH her computer. Thanks Soule Mama!

Well that's me for now. lets see how faithful i can be on my "new" blog.